Look at this picture?! Isn’t it amazing!
This pic caught my eye and tells of the very essence of how I am feeling today.
We all have our down days and trying times. I am coming through yet another one in my life. It has great sadness and I’ve had to let go of some very personal things BUT……….in the back of my mind, I know I made the very best decisions.
There is such a sense of peace and reassurance that comforts me. See, the thing is this. The very thing(s) that I wanted, that I deeply did not want to let go off, were the very same things that were holding me back from being the person I am meant to be. I tried to fight it. Damn, did I ever. I thought if it feels good, why WOULD I want to give up those things?! Why SHOULD I give up those things?!
Through prayer, perseverance and reflection, I knew I had to abandon this sinking feeling – and if I did, then things may begin to take a positive turn. If those things I truly wanted were meant for me, they would return to me to be mine.
It is a bittersweet feeling to feel deep sadness and defeat on one hand while the other hand is feeling somewhat more grounded and …..um, free I guess you could say.
Do you ever feel like this?
I have accepted it as a new chapter. A time for renewal. A time for personal growth. I will definitely come out stronger.
There is always a silver lining but I have learned quite frankly, that the silver lining doesn’t necessarily rear its head to you until its darn good and ready. Sometimes it’s just too hard to see no matter how hard we look. We can’t make things happen. They have to happen when they are supposed to – as hard as that is to accept.
The most important thing I think I have learned is trial brings triumph. I must admit I am not triumphant yet, but the initial picture above explains exactly how I am feeling right now in this moment. Looking out at the beauty of nature and sighing a sigh of peace and relief.